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A Mother's Dispatch

by ~MysticFay, Mar 3, 2010, 11:50:43 PM
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         How are things in heaven?  I ask because I have no clue.  Honestly, you were going to be my piece of heaven.  I couldn't wait to hold you and kiss your face.  I thought, How cool will it be to have someone who looks like me, someone who instinctively loves and trusts me? That's the worse part about this whole experience; I woke up this morning expecting to feel your flurried kicks inside me, and I still dream of your birth, even though it's not possible.  I still think about designing your room, shopping for diapers, and planning for our future.

         Your daddy wonders if I'm O.K., and I want to say, "Forget about me.  My baby is the one who's not O.K., the one who's not here."  I knew I was all right as soon as the labor ended. My belly is swollen and empty, but I'm O.K...  I'm O.K, but my baby's heart doesn't beat.

         I just cannot think of a reason why this has happened, but maybe I did something wrong.  Maybe I ran too much.  Maybe I took some destructive vitamins.  Maybe, maybe, having children is not for me.

         You have a brother in heaven.  Did you know that?  Maybe you've already met him.  God will look after you both.  I wish I could see your smiling faces, and then I could easily bear this.  We still have to plan the funeral and give you a name.  Yet how can I do that when the doctor is still running tests on your body? The nurse didn't even tell your daddy if you were a boy or girl.

         Yet I will love you no matter what gender you are.  I will always think of you when I look out the window and see the clouds roving across the clear, blue sky. I will think of you when I see my hands empty and wrinkled with age. I will think of you when the snow settles softly on the ground, and nothing but a white blaze remains.  Please, please be happy in heaven, for without you, life on Earth is hell.

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i don't know when it happened.i don't know when it happened.

my lips were made to kiss children—creased brows, appled cheeks, and spindly wrists.

my hands tousled the heads of small individuals wrapped around my leg.

the words “i love you” (my mother’s gift, my father’s joke) that I gave freely to the eyes looking back up at me.

but here my lips are pressed against yours, then restlessly moving and forming vowels-sounds on your collar bone.

my hands smoothing the bristles of hair on your head, my legs wedged between yours

but my voice is silent, the words “i love you” never said

they belong to a child

and she’s ni don't know when it happened. by ~MysticFay

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Dear Future Lover IIDear Future Lover,

You will see the sun in me when no else can

And feel warmth in my laughter, the heat of us together

You might want me to kiss you and forget, don’t worry

(I’m good at that)

Breathe into my lips, I’ll exhale your escape

But if you find, you want to know me more

That you want to waste your precious time

Being less a lover and more a friend

(Be careful)

I won’t know what to say, I won’t know what to do

If you look too closely, you will see the fear in my eyes

And hear the dull thud of my heart

And my shrill intake of breath

If you reach out and touch me unguarded

YouDear Future Lover II by ~MysticFay

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What is beautiful?Give me a slow run.

Give a cloudy sunny day.

Give me the crunched-up tan grass speckled with snow.

Give me a foggy morning with trees with black spindly branches lost to the sky.

Give me a gap-toothed smile.

Give me a wet clumsy kiss from a two-year-old.

And I will tell you that's beautiful.What is beautiful? by ~MysticFay

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by ~MysticFay, Jan 2, 2013, 11:17:27 AM
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Hi there.

It has been a few months since I last posted my other journal, or pieces of art in my gallery. My participation on DA waxes and wanes, but in real life, I continue to write and draw. In fact, I've drawn and written a lot in the last year.

I do have a Tumblr, where I write a lot of personal posts. It's been a tough year, and yesterday marked the coming of my 21st birthday. Now I'm of legal age to drink.

With DA, I never really talk about myself. I like to pretend I exist in an ageless void when I come on here since you can't see my face or hear my voice. Since my work has become increasingly personal, I've avoided posting it on here. I'm not sure why. I guess I like the idea that people can judge me anonymously on my skill, and I like to put up the front that I am a happy person. The world is filled with too much gloom for me to add to it.

Plus, with work and school, it has been tough balance.

On the off chance, that you do like hearing from me or reading my work. I'll post a few more pieces before I go back to school.

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