Dear Future Lover II

Dear Future Lover,

You will see the sun in me when no else can

And feel warmth in my laughter, the heat of us together

You might want me to kiss you and forget, don’t worry

       (I’m good at that)

Breathe into my lips, I’ll exhale your escape

But if you find, you want to know me more

That you want to waste your precious time

Being less a lover and more a friend

       (Be careful)

I won’t know what to say, I won’t know what to do

If you look too closely, you will see the fear in my eyes

And hear the dull thud of my heart

And my shrill intake of breath

If you reach out and touch me unguarded

You’ll cut yourself on my jagged edges

I could hurt you, then bathe you in anxious tears

You will see the ugliest parts of me expressed by the scars on my skin

And the worry lines around my sleepless eyes

And how my teeth have clenched themselves to bits

You could be carried away in my rolling seas

For the sun you saw in me was but a pause between storms

But you know

    You know

    (I can shine for you)